I Over Thought It & Hurt My Own Feelings
/I was trying to represent both the suffering that we feel in response to trauma/triggers/BPD, combined with the seemingly selfish way we can at times take it out on those closest to us.
The ‘I’ in this story, even while repentant/sorrowful is still focused on it-self.
Yes there is suffering, but that suffering isn’t a justification to take it out on the innocent people that love us.
I also wanted to highlight the absolute overwhelm of emotions that trauma can cause. The spiral into darkness and the inevitable relationship breakdowns that result from such outbursts.
It takes a patient and empathetic person to tolerate that.