More medication more failure. Once again I was apathetic, depressed and not feeling at all like myself, to such an extent that it felt dangerous….

My first attempt at finding the right medication hasn’t gone so well… In this episode I share it’s impact, my thoughts, and what I am doing moving foward.

Thank you to everyone offering their support.

Sertraline

Why does growth feel like escaping from quicksand? In this episode I discuss some of the new projects I am working on, and the impact of taking these steps is having on my mental state.

Growth is both my goal and a necessity, but that just adds to the pressure. Thus the risk of failure is increased.

Trigger warning on the introductory poem.

A follower asked me to share my experiences of suicide ideation. This podcast is my response, hopefully it helps them, and you to heal, grow, recover and connect.

Mental illness is both invisible and insidious. Perhaps the reason we lose so so many to suicide and addiction; those suffering will do anything to end it, other than reach out that is.

So please, check on your friends. Even the strong ones. Especially if you notice a change, and even if you don’t.

Trust your intuition and risk an awkward conversation. Because doing so may avoid having to endure the worst phone call of your life.

In this episode of the Reality Check podcast, Zachary introduces his new blog. Two blog posts are read titled: Is Suicide Selfish? & Antidepressants Saved My Life But Didn't Make It Worth Living